It’s one thing to think about someone’s life with 14 kids (eight being infants at the same time) and it’s a whole other to see it. I’m not sure if last night’s airing was the start of her own show, just a preview or her testing the waters, but it definitely was enough to give you an idea of her “big” picture.

There were a few scenes where all (or what seemed to be all, who could count?) of the kids were in the same room. You had seven babies (most of them crying) on the bed, one in mom’s hands and the other older children swinging from chandeliers and shiznik. There’s really no words that can describe it. It’s definitely something that has to be seen and felt. Seriously, I’m not sure how the woman hasn’t been either locked up in a mental ward or found contemplating a bridge leap. I get it, the girl has made her bed, but no one in their right mind would not feel sorry for her. I do, and I don’t feel sorry for alot of people. Maybe it’s because I myself had twins, but my story can’t even compare to hers. She wanted a big family? She got more than a big family. She got a whole country sitting right in her living room that she has little to no control over.

This lady’s craziness probably existed before her multiple creations, but you can tell from the footage that she’s not all there. I doubt 14 kids is going to help any of that anytime soon either. I guess where I empathized the most with her is when she woman’s up and basically tells a friend of hers that she didn’t know what she was doing having all of those kids…and without a father at that. There are instances where you actually can’t do it on your own, and this would be one of them. She realizes she wasn’t thinking about the future and she was in a selfish state with her decisions. She feels like she ruined her and her children’s lives.

Now her relationship with her mother is strained to almost non-existent. One of her older daughters spends most of her time pouting and running away from her. She has a toddler that hits and curses at her. She can’t find the strength to stand up to them. It gives a whole new meaning to being outnumbered. Then she’s got a ton of strangers inside and outside of her house watching her every move and taking up even more space. Through it all she gives great insight and psychological banter. That’s obviously how she has survived…that and she has a father that seems to really love her.

So while it is an uncomfortable show to watch, it is reality or at least surreal reality at its best. If nothing else, hopefully it will make someone think before they get the idea that they want a “big” family.